Yeah, i'm fat.

I'm not as fat as I used to be though!  I do have that going for me.  But still, I am FAT.  How fat did I used to be?  Funny you should ask that.  I'm not real sure because after the needle on the scale hit 230 I quit looking.  Now this is without being pregnant.  In my opinion, pregnancy shouldn't count.  Not only are you adding another human to your poundage, but it's a given that you are going to gain weight then.  Kinda like a freebie.  A freebie you don't want.  A freebie I got five times.

I bet you are wondering how much I weigh now.  I'll get to that.  I need to build up some courage first.  So I will show you what made me think "maybe I need to lose a few pounds".  If you have any small children, much loved pets, or anyone with a heart condition in the room, you may want to ask them to leave for a sec.

Yeah, the fat one is me.  Now this is two and a half months after I had my fifth child.  But really that is no excuse.  I was freaking huge!  I'll take being just fat any day over that.  I can honestly say I will never go back to that again.  Like I said, I don't know exactly how much I weighed there, but it was well over 200 pounds and I was wearing a size 22 pants.  I am 5'4 by the way.  Yeah, that's big.
     So I dieted.  Sort of.  And I exercised.  Sort of.  And I got down to 170.  Is 170 what I weigh right now?  Nope.  Yeah, I am on my way back to being huge.

     So what changed to make me want to hop back on the wagon?  My absolute fear of weighing 200 pounds or more again.  The fact that I can't run.  The fact that I used to have abs and muscles and a cute little tush.  Believe it or not, I used to be skinny.  At one point I weighed 110 pounds.  I had a 'six pack'.  My butt looked fanfreakingtastic.  I had the legs of a super model.  Ok, a short super model.  I used to be very active.  I worked out every day, I ran everyday, I watched what I ate everyday.  I bet I can guess your next question.....
     What the heck happened!!!!!  Life.  I got married and had 5 kids rather quickly.  I got very comfy in my lifestyle of being a stay at home mom.  Lets face it, it's hard to go to the gym if you have five kids.  Who is going to watch all of them for free while I go to the gym?  Nobody.  But I will spare you all of the blah, blah ,blah that is my excuse and tell you what I am doing now.
     As I said before, I sort of exercised and dieted.  I cut out all sweets and sodas including my beloved sweet tea.  I walked every now and then.  I did take Phentramine for a while, but I never could keep the weight off after I quit taking it.  So this time, no drugs.  I am exercising.  I'll stay on it.  As for the watching what I eat....that's a little hard.  I am going to have to cook my food separate from everyone elses.  It wouldn't be fair to put the six skinny people in the house on a diet.
     So what is my goal?  To lose 55 pounds by my 30th birthday (May).  That will get me to 130.  I will be happy with that.  Do I want to get back to 110?  No. Honestly, that is not healthy for me.  I want to be healthy more than I want my butt back where it belongs.  Although it would be nice if it would stop migrating.
     So welcome to the Journey of a Fat Mom!  It's going to be an interesting ride.
Oh, and I weigh 185. *runs away*